Letter to Me

If I could write a letter to me, and send back in time to myself at 17, just kidding; those are Brad Paisley’s lyrics. It’s a good song though and it’s where I’m going to pull my inspiration for this blog.

Dear Eva (11);

You are beautiful and you’re smart. I am proud to see you adjusting well to a new school. Be careful who you become friends with though, there are some good people in your class, find them and befriend them. You’re so young, and 20 is not old, also you will achieve your dream of working as a receptionist. Go home and play with your siblings, they will grow up fast.

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Dear Eva (13);

Honey these people are not worth your tears. In a few months, it won’t matter these girls didn’t like you. It won’t matter they didn’t want you in their group for the graduation trip. Go home, learn the definition of self-respect, and punch any boy in the face that calls you a stripper or touches your boobs. Also, leave the push up bra at home, what’s gotten into you.

High school is just around the corner, forget about the boys and make some girls friends, you’re going to wish you had, and when you get there, do what makes you feel confident and don’t listen to anyone else.

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Dear Eva (15);

I’m sorry. I’m sorry you had to go through that. I’m sorry they failed you. I’m sorry he did that to you, and you will never get that back. Talk to someone about it. You’re not a bad person, this wasn’t your fault. Don’t go the next years of your life as a reflection of what he did.

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Dear Eva (17);

You’ve come a long way. You’ve learnt what it means to not let people step all over you; don’t lose that. Remember sometimes the people in your life are not the destination, but preparing you and shaping you to be a better person. When you look back, don’t see what you left behind, let it be motivation to keep moving forward. Also, he seems like a great guy; and maybe he is, but he’s not for you, and that’s okay.

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Dear Eva (19);

Well you made it to college, I know you never saw yourself here, not at this school and not for this program. But you’ll make great friends and you’re going to get a job right out of college, that’s awesome. Remember you paid a lot of money to be here, don’t be an idiot, but have fun, you’re in college! Also congratulations on making the Burlesque thing work, you’re going to love it.

…It wasn’t mean to be. It was too early, that’s why the test came back negative. I’m sorry. One day you’ll be a great mom I imagine. Just not yet. The world knew you weren’t ready.

All the best, and I’ll see you in the mirror;

Eva (21)

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